As some of you know I have a Rocket League team and we have been participating in ESL tournaments for almost a month now. Sadly we are 0-6 and it is starting to become a fun killer. I have been playing RL religiously since it was released in July of last year and I have always had fun whether I won or lost but as of late it seems that myself and my team have been doing nothing but losing. I’m not just talking about in the tournaments, I’m talking about just regular competitive matches.
Every single week after we were stomped out in tournament play I would fall into a slump, losing most of my games but eventually by the middle of the week I would come back to my usual form and start putting up 700, 800, sometimes 1000 points a game. We would get to the next tournament game and the cycle would start all over again. Well something is different this time around because I haven’t stopped losing. Starting last Sunday all the way up until today (Wednesday), I have not only had a bad week, but I have been demoted from a Rising Star back into the Challenger tier. I have been posting games where I throw up anywhere from 60-300 points, a huge difference from my usual. I can’t aim my shots correctly, I am always in the wrong place at the wrong time, and I even have the hardest time just stopping a rolling ball inching its way into the goal when I am directly in front of it.
Just today myself and one of my teammates went 0 for 7 in doubles, getting blown out in 5 of them. I wouldn’t be surprised if I am about to get demoted again for the way I have been playing. The problem I am having is I don’t see myself playing any differently than when I was winning all the time, the fact of the matter is, I would actually nail the corners of the goal with my shots instead of the corners of the maps. I now often go up for an aerial shot and hit the ball BACKWARDS! Who does that!?
What’s worse, I find myself getting overly angry at the game making me not want to play it anymore, even though I know I love the game. Ill tell myself “That’s it! I’m done, no more!” and then an hour or two later I’ll come back thinking “okay, I’ll do better this time” and then do even WORSE than I did previously.
So what do I do? Continue to lose until I get back to my usual form? My team has already agreed to drop out of the ESL tournaments and how can I blame them? I feel the same way. We practice all week and then for a couple hours before the tournament starts only to get blown out in 2 games 19-1. Its not fun. We have a project that will change all that but I’ll give you more details at a later date.
The fact of the matter is, I love RL and I don’t want to stop playing but losing consistently out of nowhere for this long just isn’t fun, and it is extremely frustrating knowing that I am so much better than the skill level I am preforming at. I always thought at some point I was going to reach the top tier of RL and somehow join a pro team and take this thing a long way. In season one I hit Gold 1 about 5 times before dropping back down to Silver 1 or 2 in a matter of days, but it took weeks to climb back up. Maybe I am not as good as I would of hoped, maybe I just don’t have it in me to be a great RL player, just “Good”.